I need a self spring cleaning!

Starting off, 

I know I haven't been on in the past few days but I haven't really been motivated to write. I actually tried to just spill something out onto here but my brain wouldn't budge. It kind of felt foggy, actually.

Next weekend, I am going to start spring cleaning our apartment in preparation for May. Our apartment isn't big but it's very....verrryyy messy. I kind of lack motivation in cleaning as well as many other things. I have officially let the house gooooo....and myself.

So I'm on the lookout for DIY at home pampering to do on myself right after I finish our apartment. 

Here's my schedule so far:

Friday: Living Room/Dining Area

• Deoderizing and vacuuming all carpeted areas, under the couches and the couches themselves
• Dusting ALL surfaces and cleaning windows
• Reorganizing media and prioritizing storage
• Trashing what hasn't been used in last year
• Dusting corners, ceiling and spot cleaning walls (I don't have kids, so they're not that bad)
• Cleaning Gandalf Gecko's Tank

Saturday: Kitchen/Bathroom

• Cleaning ALL dishes and trashing excess
• Cleaning out pantry of unhealthy and expired items
• Clean all cabinets and counter
• Clean microwave, fridge and all surfaces
• Sweeping and Mopping all floors
• Scrubbing tub and toilet
• Reorganizing towel closet
• Clean Mirrors

Sunday: The Dreaded Bedroom

• Clean all surfaces
• Throw away trash
• Fold/Hang clothes
• Sort Laundry
• Vacuum everywhere including closet and under bed

Monday: Laundry/Self

• Laundry
• Scrubbing myself with abrasive glove
• Giving myself a facial and my hair a mask
• Home mani/pedi
• Actually STYLE hair for once.

We'll see.
Wish me luck.

Yours Truly,
The Inconsistent Gal

Prayers...

As most of the country knows, yesterday we experienced yet another tragedy 

   

The Boston Marathon, an even that has taken place annually for over 100 years, was hit yesterday with 2 bombs. So far, 3 people have been confirmed dead and over 150 injured.

On paper, those numbers are just...numbers. We watch and read the news, talk about how sad it is what happened. Meanwhile, peoples lives are so drastically changed. It's more than just tragic. Or maybe the word tragic has lost it's meaning from the sheer amount it's been used. Events like this invoke such a deep feeling of...loss...in my heart. Humanity is just declining every day something new. Why do people want to cause such hurt? If it's a statement, political or otherwise, why do you NEED to change people's lives so much...cause them pain, and have them live with this for the rest of their lives? I just don't understand the depth of evil in some people's hearts...All I know is that the person or people responsible for this WILL get what is coming to them. BUT Amidst all of the dust and blood, you could people and first responders rushing to help and assist the injured. People rushing to hospitals to give blood. Human beings comforting others. Amidst all the evil an destruction, you will ALWAYS find those who are a true example of humanity.

And this was not the only tragedy to occur. On the other side of the world, and earthquake took the lives of 40 people in Iran today. 40 human lives, lost. Now I know people in this country have opinions of the middle east. I've seen and heard comments from individuals that did nothing but bare the intense darkness of our human soul. People saying their deaths were irrelevant because these humans where somehow lesser...It's sickening. It's because this country has a RIDICULOUS fear of all things Arab/Muslim/Middle Eastern related brought on by the sensationalism of our media. It's like a fire encompassing any semblance left of humanity being fanned by hate, and prejudice born of ignorance and an irrational fear of people who are different. If there was some slight facet of light in this situation is that it wasn't caused by another human being but by an earthquake. Please people, open your hearts. Just because there's a small group (less then 1%) of nut-job extremists, doesn't mean that everyone else in their countries or demographic deserves any less humanity.

I've prayed and will continue praying for EVERY loss, in EVERY day because they all deserve our love, attention and respect. I will continue praying for EVERY human who has been hurt, disabled, or changed in some negative way because they all need and deserve it.

Yours Truly,

The Inconsistent Gal

I need some motivation

Yesterday I noticed something really disconcerting.

I had gone from 226-229. I was on the verge of 230 again. I was also on the verge of giving up. I'm so tired of trying and not having anything to show for it. I'm so tired of being so lazy that I don't do all the work I'm supposed to. I should work out more than 2-3 times a week. I should be giving it 4 days a week. But I only go to the gym when I have a ride. How ridiculous am I, ladies and gentlemen. Here's the kicker. Technically...the gym is only 1.2 miles away. No, not 23, 1...point....2. Yeah. Maybe that will give you an idea of how ridiculous I am.

I want to say I'm lazy because I feel like deep down that's what it is. That I don't understand the difference between being lazy and being tired. I FEEL tired. All the time. I feel tired now at noon. I don't know why, but I don't even remember the last time I've woken up feeling good. Or refreshed. Or at least without my whole body feeling like I fought a yeti. It's like very time I wake up, every single muscle and joint is so sore. My arms feel like a ton, and my legs feel like toothpicks. Maybe I need to see a doctor. OR maybe everyone feels this but that's what coffee is for. I don't drink coffee. I don't have a coffee maker. I like it, but I never relied on it to wake up.

Anyways.

I spend my whole day feeling this sluggish so I naturally don't want to get up and do things like clean, or walk to the store or walk to the gym. If anyone actually reads this, please let me know your suggestions in the comments. I don't anyone actually reads this though, I've only had like 80 views since I started and I'm pretty sure 15 of them is me.

Yesterday I made yet ANOTHER promise to myself. I promised myself that because of all my recent laziness and failing to diet, I was in for a very rough 2 months. I can have a food cheat day on the 15th and 30th of those months. But I am promising myself only hard work and dedication. I'm removing temptation from the house today and wearing a rubber band on my wrist when I go shopping. I will be working out 5-6 times a week and try to make 4 of those days at the gym. I downloaded My Fitness Pal and Water Your Body to keep me on track. I also put inspirational photos on my phones desktop.

I know, from my previous record, that my promises to myself are about as reliable as a politician. Please pray for me.

So until June 15, my body is on lock down. I I have 2 months. Sigh.

Yours Truly,

The Inconsistent Gal

Oh! Here's a good topic:

Why I will never put images of myself online:

I have a Facebook, and I have this blog. I have a fully functioning camera and I great flash camera on my phone. But you'll probably never see a picture of Me, the author. I know that to many people, this would seem shady. What am I hiding from the world?

(my secret is out...)

IN my own mind, there is a perfectly logical reason for this. Yes, in MY own mind. I can't speak for the rest of you.

Here's the thing. The internet is a very VERY large place. It reaches into the farthest corners of the world, and can even be found in isolated villages. Can you imagine how many millions of people can be reached? Anyone in the ENTIRE world can has access to your picture. Now here's another question. Would you pass out your photos to anyone you meet? Would you mail them to people you have never met and know absolutely nothing about?

Didn't think so.
(if you said yes, you suck for ruining my example)

I'm just not so comfortable with the idea that someone out there can be using my picture for a number of things including but not limited to:

Marketing
Memes
Pornography
Articles

All these things that don't represent ME. Using my face without my permission. Not to mention printing it out and saving it for...later.

(need I explain?)

What drives me up the wall is that no one is explaining to these kids the consequences of posting photos online. I'll see Facebook pages with teens doing embarrassing stuff (which is understandable, you are a teen) but the internet holds data FOREVER. FOR STINKING EVER. Got it? Including in the millions of people I mention above, are future employers, creditors, and people in prison.

And I understand the point of view "Well hurr durr, whatever, I was just a teen durr" or "Well it's not going to ruin my life or anything, and I want to show off my bikini bod". I love different points of view, it's what makes the world spin. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT...I would prefer to have sole ownership and command of what my face does and doesn't. I would require permission to use my image for any purpose. People get so flipping crazy about copyrighting logos and whatnot but no one cares about your face? Geez, peeps.

Anyways. That's why I'm letting you know now. You'll see pics of my food. You'll see pics of any new interior decor. And you'll see a ton of animal pics. But you won't see any pics of me. Except this one:

(inaccurate arm length)

Yours Truly,

The Inconsistent Gal

Sir Butters Guido Furrsington

So guess who had a vet visit yesterday.

(That's Sir Butters Guido Furrsington. He is of the Orange Medium Haired Jerk Cat breed).

He was good cat though, no biting or scratching. Which left me surprised.

I don't know if I told you, and I'm too lazy to go back and look, but Sir Butters, (or just Butters) had been puking for 2 days straight almost non-stop. It actually hurt because, ya know, he's mah babeh. And he was hungry, so he'd eat then immediately evacuate. After he threw up each time, he'd come and cuddle on my lap like some cute sick monster and beg for attention. Which I gave him because I am what is known as a pushover for animals.

SO yesterday I took him to the vet who poke and prodded and stuck things in orifices, 

(actual photo)

And they deduced that he had tapeworms but from asking others, that isn't why he is barfing.

The vet was nice, he did say that aside from the tapeworms, Butters was a model example of a healthy cat. SO take note y'all.

This has got to be the most mundane blog post EVARRR. But I'm finding that frequency is the key to consistency. For now.

By the way, current weight: 226. Still a failure. Still trying.

Yours Truly,

The Inconsistent Gal

Things about to get REALLLLL gushy up in here.

A marriage is everlasting love.

But even though everlasting love is perfectly story book, marriage isn't. At least not automatically. Getting married is like walking into Mordor.

 (source: http://laurafisherphotography.wordpress.com/)

It's sacrifice.

It gets routine.

It gets dull.

You get annoyed with seeing the same person.

You get tired of repeating the same thing over and over again.

(that's right, I'm a lady, I'm biased. Deal with it.)

You get tired.

There's stress.

There's bad days.

There's worse days.

There are days where you want to jump on the trend of D-I-V-O-R-C-E

BUT

This is marriage. Almost everyone goes through this. I wish people wouldn't jump to cut the knot. I wish they would just try harder. I wish people would see that often times, the problem is not with one but with both of you. It almost always comes down to pride and ego. It's usually that venomous combination that turns something as silly as "Give me back the charger cable" to "Give me back the charger cable or else we're through".

 We have to learn that in a marriage we need to leave our ego at the door. This isn't some street fight you're trying to win, this si your spouse. For better or for worse. Don't believe TV. Heck don't believe anyone who says they have a perfect marriage, they probably don't want to reveal they have faults. Instead of listening to everyone else, listen to each other and try to do for your spouse at the level you want them to do for you. Don't nag each other. Don't belittle each other. Above all, everlasting love is what brought you together. Try to remember and focus on that.

If you feel like you're losing a battle to your pride, try an HONEST pros list. Not a Pros and Cons, because you're already focusing on the cons if your at this point. Just an HONEST pros list. It's surprising how much your spouse does for you that you even know of. Let alone all the little unspoken contributions, sacrifices and compromises you've made for each other.

Remember to love each other every day, when things are rough or smooth. Communicate your thoughts to your spouse in a kind manner, and LISTEN as your spouse communicates to you. Be spontaneous and your love and romance and don't sit around and expect the other to initiate. You want romance, go for it. Teach your spouse what it is to be romantic, in your eyes. Sometimes you'll find things that you thought were stupid, your spouse found to be romantic. Just. Love. Each. Other.

Marriage is compromise

it's love

it's kindness

it's safety

it's warmth

it's home

it's support

it's being with your best friend who loves you even at your worst. it's being with your lover then right after you can slip back into the mundane. It's a union and always remember that. Change the "I" mentality into a "WE". And always, always, leave the selfishness and ego at the door.

Yours truly,

The Inconsistent Gal

Oh I forgot to share...

I walked a local nature trail..

It was a really beautiful place where I COULD have gotten more amazing pictures...

 

If the battery hadn't run out because I was busy taking 92473849074 pictures of these two right before...

Yours truly,

The Inconsistent Gal